Maksudnya adalah.....

apa eh maksudnya?

kalau kita ajak orang tu keluar malam, mesti liat?maksud aku lepas waktu kerja ataupun dalam 1030 malam. kadang kadang tu ajak sebab nak makan sama. itupun setuju setelah merajuk sakan. selalunya dia akan bagi alasan kata esok kena masuk kerja awal lah, penat lah, nak tidur awal la..tetapi kalau orang lain yang ajak keluar, laju je setuju. sanggup je balik lambat. tak kisah la apa aktiviti sekalipun sama ada main bowling atau tengok wayang. tak pun jalan-jalan kat uptown or downtown.

bila dah tenang, aku pikir pikir balik la kan. aku ni siapa la sangat. lagipun kalau keluar dengan aku sah sah la dia kena keluar duit. Ooh, aku ini menyusahkan dia rupanya. kedua, mungkin aku ini memboringkan?lagipun aku ni buruk, kereta pun tiada. duit apatah lagi kan. berbeza kalau dia keluar ngan orang lain tak kisah sama ada kawan kawan dia or adik beradik dia, muka pun ceria. semanagat je!!!,La, aku ni kenapa? sedar la diri tu sikit. aku ni tak ada apa apa hubungan ngan dia pun sebenarnya. setakat gf, bila bila pun boleh putus kan. dan bila dengan aku, dia sangat malu untuk membeli. yelah pendapat aku hina, taste aku out! sanggup tu tunggu abang dia baru nak confirm padahal aku pun dah kata smart.

dah pukul 1 pagi. tak balik balik lagi. kalau dengan aku tak boleh ni. kalau dia bangun lambat esok. memang itu adalah salah aku sebab keluar ngan dia. teruk!


apa maksud dia yang sebenarnya?...

keseronokan yang sakit.

Semalam,
Sangat seronok walaupum impak nya adalah hari ini.. Arrgghh, badan ku sakit.
wall climbing punya pasal.. Back floating yang semakin baik.

Percubaan pertama aku dalam memanjat dengan kadar ketinggian yang agak tinggi. Gayat. Berjaya gak walaupun ada tersangkut dan agak lembap. Geh. Yang sadisnya, turun je kaki aku dah shaking and sangat obvious. Malu. Tapi mmg tak boleh nak control kaki tu. sakit juga sebab aku ter "over" strecth kaki aku. Ini la yang aku alami sekarang. Call mak.

Aktiviti seterusnya, berenang. masih belajar mengapungkan diri. hampir berjaya nampaknya. Seronok dan semakin yakin walaupun panik itu masih ada.

Hari ini,
Angels and Demons, The Powers of Spirituality, Thoughts on Succcess.
Stomach Pain. Aduiiii... Tak tahu la apa masalah perut aku hari ini. dia mai dah (style kak ya)..

swimming

Today I learned new things which are floating technique. In basis, there are 3 techniques called back float, front float and mushroom float. The easiest float is mushroom floats. The hardest is back float. Until the end of the class I still can’t make it. I promised myself to try harder, maybe I’ll attend to practice is there any free time. Next lesson is, I cannot remember the name but is something to use our leg. It is about to make an oval shape by leg movement while cycling in the water. Our body position is front floating technique.

I arrived around 4:55pm with Alan and Zara. As usual a short briefing was held. No under garments are allowed, have to follow the instructions that given. My coach is Chinese male. Kinda cute. His name is Kor Chia Chin. We started with warming up then all of us start to go into the water.


After the class, we three went to eat. Replenish our energy. In other word, our stomach is having a very “hard rock” performance. Alan has a class at 8pm so he stepped earlier. Unfortunately, his class was cancelled.

My eyes feel sleepy. Perhaps tired being in the water around two hours. However, I felt excited today even my swimming suit doesn’t suit me well. Waiting for it to dry then I’ll fix it again.

Having a break for a while.

berenang ke dasar

i'm going to swim within half an hour..oohhh..takut...

Daily

Don't lose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life.

Today, I’m finishing my class at 2pm. Rushing back to my room. Settling myself and started to write and “elevated” myself. Messaging with ejam a.k.a uda, my boyfriend. Calculating my financial “purse”. Looking back my daily planning, checking is there any other things that I should done by today. Yes, I have to fix my swimming suit. The first class will be on Wednesday evening which means tomorrow. Nervous.

I did something that eventually I felt disgust. This manusia really shit! Forget that. Better to forget!!


Talking about yesterday, while in Solid State class, I have a short conversation with one of my course mate. What can I concluded is human could changes rapidly with the nature behaviour. She said that she comes from a hard family. Since she was extending her degree, she felt ashamed to ask money from her old parent. Then, she decided to work, involved with one kind of MLM business but never to admit it. Telling me how from a soft person becomes a certain level of having a hard heart. She also was enjoying her life by doing something that she never done before. I’d respect her with whatever she has done to help her parent as well as herself. The things are I don’t like the way she and her friends trying to behave like a very care friend but there is something hidden agenda. Eventually, lose a lot of friends. They don’t mind that, for sure. Errmm, hopefully they have their own reasons. God bless me and all of you guys.

it is true!

Since two weeks ago, most of my time was filled with my friend; Zara and Alan. Yesterday night, we three went to DTSP watching a movie named Laskar Pelangi, a story about the difficulties of a certain Indonesian community. They lived far away from the city. This movie is also about a group of child who has their own characteristics and having a certain tendency in gaining the knowledge. Teachers who truly sincere in teaching and fighting and keep fighting with hope that school will lasts standing.

After that, we three went to Pelita, having our supper a.k.a dinner. Pathetic, the words that I can describes for Lintang. A very young boy who has to sacrifice his own dream since his father was died. He felt responsible in take care his siblings as he is the first of the family. The day he comes to the school to say goodbye to his friends and teacher really makes my tear drop off.

We are talking about our short term future, mission and vision in USM. I had been touched with what has Zara said. I knew that she is saying the truth. She is trying to convincing me that I can do better that I had did now. She said that I really too much in Uda. It’s true. I thought I still can focus in my study but indirectly I were lack of curiosity. I had to do something. I’ll try to “renovate” myself without hurting others people heart. I want to start my genius life back. Education is lasts.